All my worries and the past aside, she’s a really cool girl. We have great chemistry, that much is for sure. She fascinates me, and in turn I have no doubt that I entertain her well. It’s like we are engaged in this dance whenever we are together. There’s always a playful, push and pull sort of attraction underlying our words, gestures and interactions. If it’s anything to go by, last night was fun. We didn’t do anything special and just kind of talked past midnight over drinks, but I thoroughly enjoyed the date. She is funny, whip smart, frank, and charming - all the qualities that I dig. Not to mention, she’s interesting, like really interesting. She has her own thoughts, and I am irrationally in awe with all the shit that she has done. I respect her, and coming from me, that means something.
At the end of the day, though, I am glad she’s leaving in June. To be frank, I really think she is bad news in the long run. She’s not someone that I am necessarily compatible with, and I don’t see how she will fit well in my life as a permanent figure. Not least of all, as she said it herself last night, she’s kinda crazy when it comes to relationships… and I can’t deal with drama.
That said, right now, she’s so fcking enchanting to me. Goddammit, I want to have her as my own for at least the coming weeks.
Francis Bacon, The Advancement Of Learning (via observando)